Thursday, December 30, 2010

intentions...

this very well might be my first sober post...   instead i am wrapping up what i imagine is my eighth cup of coffee.    at any point of writing this i might burst out in song and dance do laps around the city.
im not huge on new years resolutions.  its a time where people have every intention of changing, talk a whole lot of game, and continue to sit on their asses.   but their intentions are good!
the new year is a good time, however, to reflect on the past 365 days. 
so as i reflect, i have come to the conclusion that...and i think my dad said it best when i was home for christmas... i need to "have my head examined".   (followed by laughter in the crowd of people who know me best, my family)   im pretty sure they found it funny cause they found it true.   
what have i learned the past year?   well, i have learned that although my intentions are good, if you dont follow thorough, intentions really dont mean shit.  
i have learned about myself that i jump in head fucking first.   i follow my heart 100%.  
(and yes, i am speaking mostly of relationships)
im going to wrap up 2010 with a big fucking apology to all the men affected by my "good intentions".      i am sincerely so sorry.   

so lets raise our glasses to 2011.   to keeping it fucking real.   thinking about the consequences of my actions before i jump in head fucking first.     still following my heart, but considering the other parties involved.  to good intentions leading to good results.  
and to making sure to live and love every fucking day.    not taking anything for granted.  

ive got a good feeling about 2011.   let's let it ride. 

  

Sunday, December 12, 2010

if i believe in karma..... someday i am due for an epic fucking heartbreak.