can we build a bond stronger than monotony? 

i know that i am not a lazy person.    but the guilt i hoard from a hangover is worse than the grueling headache and appetite itself.  i constantly beat myself up over downtime...  

beat myself up over not being productive.   

but not today.  

today i release all the guilt for having a good time.  

i rolled out of my boyfriends bed with a hangover three hours after my alarm went off.   

walked to the cuban cafe, ordered a cafe con leche and something off the menu i did not understand.  

today instead of guilt... i am grateful.   so grateful that i can just roll out of bed, kiss a sexy man goodbye, roll around the city and kill a couple hours before i go to work.    

i am so grateful for where i am right now.   i am happy.

i know that i am not lazy... i get shit done.   there is always downtime.  

releasing the guilt has released the hangover as well.  

why is it so hard to accept being happy?   enough with the masochist attitude.  stop being so hard on myself.    

i accept that im happy.  

no more dating boys who's mommas told them they are her favorite.  

i dont get star stuck or anything, but can i go on a date with kid cudi?

will i ever get over this kid cudi pandora??   god i hope not

tossed and turned all damn night.

as soon as i did sleep i literally punched myself in the chin. 

my arm was placed so perfectly on my chest as i had one of those dreams where you fall off a ladder or trip while you're walking....you jerk and it wakes you up.  

in this case i jerked my fist to meet my chin.  

is that how my day is going to go?? :) 

so much work to do before the 13th!!  kid cudi pandora all the way. 

COFFEE

INCOMPLETE SENTENCES

LEARN TO PAINT HAIR, grrrrrrrr.

i googled "loopy" and this is what i got.