will i ever get over this kid cudi pandora??   god i hope not

tossed and turned all damn night.

as soon as i did sleep i literally punched myself in the chin. 

my arm was placed so perfectly on my chest as i had one of those dreams where you fall off a ladder or trip while you're walking....you jerk and it wakes you up.  

in this case i jerked my fist to meet my chin.  

is that how my day is going to go?? :) 

so much work to do before the 13th!!  kid cudi pandora all the way. 

COFFEE

INCOMPLETE SENTENCES

LEARN TO PAINT HAIR, grrrrrrrr.

i googled "loopy" and this is what i got.

damage control

a one night event!

come celebrate a day before valentines by seeing artwork that focuses on the complexities of love, hate, and everything in between.

cheese and wine.

miles davis pandora.

all is good in the world.  

seriously i dont get much more relaxed than this.

the next three weeks will be a bit crazy... 

i am organizing a pop-up show for feb 13.    excited!   and nervous at the same time as i have never done this.  i am excited at the challenge, ive got the artists confirmed, the place, date and time...now crunch time!  

because i started to drink my juice (wine) while i was cooking dinner i have lost some motivation to paint tonight, so instead im going to put together another rough copy of what could be the promo piece (that should have been done a week ago)  i am excited about the group of artists.  we have never worked together.  what's my motivation??  why the hell not??!!

my biggest decision i have to make right now...

white or red??!!

intentions...

this very well might be my first sober post...   instead i am wrapping up what i imagine is my eighth cup of coffee.    at any point of writing this i might burst out in song and dance do laps around the city.

im not huge on new years resolutions.  its a time where people have every intention of changing, talk a whole lot of game, and continue to sit on their asses.   but their intentions are good!

the new year is a good time, however, to reflect on the past 365 days. 

so as i reflect, i have come to the conclusion that...and i think my dad said it best when i was home for christmas... i need to "have my head examined".   (followed by laughter in the crowd of people who know me best, my family)   im pretty sure they found it funny cause they found it true.   

what have i learned the past year?   well, i have learned that although my intentions are good, if you dont follow thorough, intentions really dont mean shit.  

i have learned about myself that i jump in head fucking first.   i follow my heart 100%.  

(and yes, i am speaking mostly of relationships)

im going to wrap up 2010 with a big fucking apology to all the men affected by my "good intentions".      i am sincerely so sorry.   

so lets raise our glasses to 2011.   to keeping it fucking real.   thinking about the consequences of my actions before i jump in head fucking first.     still following my heart, but considering the other parties involved.  to good intentions leading to good results.  

and to making sure to live and love every fucking day.    not taking anything for granted.  

ive got a good feeling about 2011.   let's let it ride. 

  

if i believe in karma..... someday i am due for an epic fucking heartbreak.